Today was harder than expected. It is an anniversary, but not really one that is cause for celebration. Perhaps it’s better to call it a milestone, one that I don’t think I’ll be able to forget for the rest of my life but hopefully will be less painful to remember year after year. Yet today was admittedly more difficult than I prepared myself for.
One blessing was that I was asked to sing and serve with friends for the worship service today. I’ve shared in previous blog posts that singing has been helpful in this journey. One of the songs chosen was a new addition to the set of songs we usually play throughout this year. It was actually an old song from the past and I was thankful that it was chosen on such a day like this. I found myself trying to keep it together, so let me share these appropriate lyrics that I’ve sung on repeat today to remind my grieving and doubting heart that I have reasons to sing and praise my Heavenly Father who loves me.
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame