This is My Prayer

Today was harder than expected. It is an anniversary, but not really one that is cause for celebration. Perhaps it’s better to call it a milestone, one that I don’t think I’ll be able to forget for the rest of my life but hopefully will be less painful to remember year after year. Yet today was admittedly more difficult than I prepared myself for.

One blessing was that I was asked to sing and serve with friends for the worship service today. I’ve shared in previous blog posts that singing has been helpful in this journey. One of the songs chosen was a new addition to the set of songs we usually play throughout this year. It was actually an old song from the past and I was thankful that it was chosen on such a day like this. I found myself trying to keep it together, so let me share these appropriate lyrics that I’ve sung on repeat today to remind my grieving and doubting heart that I have reasons to sing and praise my Heavenly Father who loves me.

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice I will declare God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand

All of my life in every season
You are still God I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Lord, help my unbelief and help me to trust that you give good gifts, even if they come in unexpectedly like through trials and sufferings.